Once upon a time, no this is not a story but actually few years ago a doctor told me that my mind if wired in a weird way. He said that my reflexes are way too quick than a normal person, in-fact 10 times more faster than an average human being. I seriously don’t know what that means but now i have started to experience it. I wish it was in a good way but now this awesome ability of mine has started to bog me down.
As many of you know, i make sites and since last 1 years i have tried to cut down on outsourcing work and tried to focus on my building own sites. What has happened with me is that i have like tons of ideas in my mind and i work alone and i try to work all those ideas. Yes! Gurus say that you should only focus on one thing at one time so that you can focus on it 100% but as read above problem is with my mind. It’s wired in a weird way. I have become addicted to Multi-tasking.
There are people in Startup world who say they have no idea what to work on. But here i am with 101 ideas in my mind and trying to do all of it at once and that has seriously halted my career. I have made more sites than i count on. Heck, there are complete web applications that are sitting ideal in my Hard drive which i have not even bothered to upload them on internet.
Besides, i don’t have any partner, co-founders, friends, mentors or gangs with whom i can discuss about my ideas and plans and who could tell me what to do and what not do. Half of my friend have no jack shit clue what i do and other half are way busy with what they do. Above that, i live in a small town, so only interaction that i can have with like minded people is either on Twitter or Facebook which you very well know does not compare to real world interaction. Sometimes this feel so much frustrating. I even try/plan to move to bigger city but with my past shenanigans, i fear something bad will happen again or i will break someone’s heart again. I have done that and don’t want to do it again.
So, coming back to Multiple ideas things, right now i have like 10 sites in progress. I made their mockup, coded them in WordPress and they are sitting just like that waiting to be uploaded. As per upload, i don’t know when that will happen. Few days later, my mind will conceive a new idea and i will get down and dirty with it and will probably forget that current 10 sites that i have in process.
I have tried all sorts of project management, time management and every other management thing to do it properly but i think ultimately i will have to wipe out everything and start afresh with just one idea that i truly love and truly want to succeed with.
My family says, do something that makes money. But i have made money and only ability to make money does not excites me anymore. (Yeah, that is a line from The Social Network – Movie) but guess what that actually applies to some people. I may not have millions or billions of dollars but i do know how to make money that will give you a decent life and i don’t want to make money doing things that i don’t like or which has no future. I have already spent 5 years of career working for others and now i just don’t want to do that all over again for rest of my life.
I hope i can set my mind to do one thing and focus my awesome mind in it and do it in the very best way.
Thanks for reading my rant.